IT DOESNT MATTER ANYMORE
As we grow up , we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down , probably will . You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts . You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them , and you'll cry because time is flying by . So take too many pictures , laugh too much, forgive freely , and love like you've never been hurt . Life comes with no guarantees , no time outs , no second chances . you just have to live life to the fullest , tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off , speak out , dance in the pouring rain , hold someone's hand , comfort a friend , fall asleep watching the sun come up , stay up late , be a flirt , and smile until your face hurts . Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all , live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back .

Im not me anymore . Things doesnt matter in my life anymore . Whatever I do right now , it doesnt matter anymore . Be it cutting myself , jumping down from the building , everything doesnt matter anymore . Life has gone topsy turvy . I wish I would die this instant . Or at least brainwash me .

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